the choices i made…

October 24th, 2005 by xialenblogs

it’s the choices….

…that will keep you alive with your life with the decisions that you will stand for,

…it can also kill your character that you have struggled to build your entire life.

…it will make you happy yet so unsure…

… it will also hurt yourself and people that you love most…

…it carries out different kinds of emotions that you wont expect to feel…

But these choices… are God given, you cannot do anything about it… you are destined to cross a path that you will encounter complications… (at least that’s what i think)

it’s complicated

October 13th, 2005 by xialenblogs

This is it! when things happen without a plan. I am in this situation wherein I myself couldn’t imagine. It only reminds me that God has his means to draw you closer to Him.

I was having the time of my life, and a sudden change drifted me to where i am right now.

Some of my principles were bent, it took me awhile to realize that things happen for a reason.

So here i am, this so -called un-righteous position (as i used to call it) but who cares i don’t want to blame myself for the rest of my life for not even trying it…. it’s just like a drug to me!./…

Im just hoping that it works! if it doesn’t…. it’s still ok…..

it’s complicated!!!

October 3rd, 2005 by xialenblogs

Here i am getting the time of my life a lot of great things gets in my way. At this point, the most unexpected situation is right in front of me. The question is, how will I handle it? It all falls back to one answer, you just have to make a choice. Either you end it right away or continue and go with the flow.

For the past few months, i’ve done alot of thinking with my boring life. I suddenly realized that i needed change too with my outlook in life. And here it is…….. (to be continued)

it’s complicated!!!

October 3rd, 2005 by xialenblogs

Here i am getting the time of my life a lot of great things gets in my way. At this point, the most unexpected situation is right in front of me. The question is, how will I handle it? It all falls back to one answer, you just have to make a choice. Either you end it right away or continue and go with the flow.

For the past few months, i’ve done alot of thinking with my boring life. I suddenly realized that i needed change too with my outlook in life. And here it is…….. (to be continued)

confused girl

September 7th, 2005 by xialenblogs

This is it !!! the height of my career and social life, i tend to forget my lovelife which really bothers me… For the past two weeks i’m amazed by what was going on with my social life I’ve had closure with my special "ex" after all those years. I’ve discovered something with my friend ( which got me so confused). I get to be with my old friends. I don’t know it makes me happy….. and it sucks coz i want it to be this way.

SheesH!! im so confused that i don’t even know why im writing this down!! i have to make a part 2 for this…..

My first Job

August 12th, 2005 by xialenblogs

How should i start with this? It’s my first job and surprisingly within a short span of time i realized how much i have excelled in my field and my scope of work became larger. I’ve always wanted to be very professional and career-oriented, because that’s how i was brought up to be.

According to my superiors, i’ve been doing good and satisfactorily managed to exceed their expectations. Which really flatters me. I learned corporate culture, organizational behavior and alot of things in a business environment.

Only, I am an employee. A  so called employee that completes each task given to me by my superiors.

Being a daughter of the Chairman of the Board. In-short i can also be identified as a COO (Child of the Owner) which i intend to separate that concept from my colleagues.

Anyway, it is also pressure for my part to be handling that. My father, the Big Boss in my office is the one making orders from the management level down to the security guards.

I’ve always wanted to be like him, but it’s hard though. My father established a good foundation of having a legacy.

I am being trained by my my father-Boss which bothers me to see other employees in our office to be bending rules and regulations, policies and guidelines. I’ve established to have a good standing in the office environment. Good relations with my co-workers.

Unfortunately, there will come a time that your professionalism will be tested. So here it is, i got pushed to my limits of my tolerance level to one of my colleagues. So then, i got tantrums at the office, i cried infront of the management team, which it was so hard for me to handle.

Of course being the daughter of the boss, i showed them the attitude that they’ve never seen before.

It’s hard to handle , but nevertheless my professionalism was challenged and it will be a lesson learned from my part.